don't say it if you mean it

there's this fundamental law in this universe that i can never seem to disprove. i don't know what to call it, but it's there and i see it through my own experiences countless times as well as in others. it's basically this: if you want something, don't tell others, otherwise it'll never happen.

a friend once told everyone he was going on a health kick. he told us all that he was planning on waking up at 6 every morning to go to the gym. he failed. in fact, i think he only ever got up that early even once during that time.

i really, REALLY wanted to learn how to surf last summer. i went on a learn-to-surf camp, bought a board, and told friends that i was getting into the sport. friends kept asking me how the surfing was going, but it never really worked out. now it's winter and i've pretty much given up.

i had an interview for a fantastic job a few months back. it would've been the ultimate computer-geek job working for a fantastic company with state-of-the-art equipment, etc. i started telling people about the interview process once i'd reached the 3rd interview (each interview was 3 hours long - i'm not kidding). but after i'd told everyone, i failed the next interview. in fact, i failed spectacularly in a way i shouldn't have. but i did. consequently, i just received a new job for another company. but with this company i told very, VERY few people and avoided the subject altogether. and i got the job. wtf?

basically what i'm getting at is that when you really want something, it's like some sort of rule the universe has where if you start telling people your likeliness of getting that thing demishes greatly. i can't explain it, and i've silently tried to disprove it thinking that it's just bullshit superstitition.... but it's TRUE dammit. call me superstitious but i believe it now. you can only ignore recurring shit so many times.

but why is it so? why is it that it seems that we're not allowed to share to others what we're hoping to achieve? why can't we announce that we're, as an example, feeling confident in a job interview we're going through, or that we're planning on being fit and built by september, or that we're going to learn how to cook asian, or learn a new language or whatever? is it because by announcing such things to the public are we are silently creating expectations within ourselves of what we are trying to achieve which in turn makes us nervous about the possibility of looking like failures should we not achieve it? by telling others, are we forcing ourselves to hope for something because we instinctly don't really want that thing in the first place or don't believe in ourself?

i have dreams. i have a few things i want to achieve. now call me superstitious, but from now on i'm not going to tell anyone of these dreams. i'm going to keep them silent and keep my head down. if something good happens to me, you'll hear it once it's happened, not when i'm waiting for it to happen.